Sunday, December 14, 2008

Fate Facing 12/15/08

I'm just looking to get through the day.

Peter Falk


The days never end because there is unfinished business and trouble that doesn't get resolved on the following day.

I always thought that some day I would do something important with my life. Well
there's not much left of it and what I have is a big cardboard box full of skimmed off artifacts of my 50 year career in show business, some memories and a lot of regrets. And now, I am just what my mother said I would be: a lonely old man.

Illness, poverty and large debts have brought a stop to all my hopes and plans.



Big Mark 243 said...

That wasn't cool for your Mother to say ... but that is going to be it from me. Sometimes, it is okay to be a little down ... as long as you remember it doesn't take much digging before you are in a hole.

So stop!

Rose said...

Sounds like you are beating yourself up! You are a very talented man.

Everyone has gone down the wrong road during life's path but that does not make you a loser!

We all care about you!

Hugs, Rose

Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

Nothing wrong with rock gardens, they can be very beautiful.

Linda's World said...

I always feek sad when mom's say those type of negative things to their children. But don't let her words from long ago, keep you down now. Remember all your successes, and also remember that you have lots of friends her in Bloggerville. I can't get over the number of country flags on your NeoCounter! Amazing!!! Linda in below freezing Washington state.

Beth said...

As long as you have people who care about you, you are never alone, and you know that there are many of us here who care about you. We all have regrets from time to time, but the question is, do we let them rule our lives?

Love ya, D.

Joyce said...

Ditto on what Beth and Linda said. I don't like your mother very much. What a terrible thing to say to a son or daughter. This is an especially hard time of year for those that live alone and have no family around. I'm sorry you are feeling down. I pray things get better for you soon.
Hugs, Joyce

Searching for Peace said...

I wished i loved close to you. I would come over on Christmas, I would bring a couple cups of hot chocolate for us to enjoy . We could talk about all our mistakes and our successes. It is easier to see the bad parts and over look the good parts (I should talk lol ) I have made alot of bad turns probably more than most. I quit school to have a baby and get married. I procratinated on getting my GED test done. I divorced and was stupid enough to marry another abuser again. I spent 10 years being talked down to and insulted before i left him and married another. I over looked my education and boy do I regret that. I am trying to fix it now with my GED test but i think it is too little to late. Hang in there DB and please try to think of the good thingsd you have done. I know I am not much but you have helped me many times. You inspire me.. Thank you my friend. The holidays are awful for me too. I am lonely as well. Here is a ((((HUG))))))


Janice said...

I get to feeling like that sometimes too. The best thing to do is ...I have no idea what the best thing is. Cry maybe, or do something quick for someone else, or read a good book, or have a stiff drink, or write in your blog about it. Or remember how your funny comments made others laugh and brightened up their day.

Arlene (AJ) said...

DB never count yourself out, you're a remarkable man, I feel it every time I read your words. Your Mom was wrong. Life deals all of us ups and downs, it's how we respond to them that makes a difference in how we feel mentally and emotionally. Allow yourself to be out and doing things, even if you aren't feeling great, beats feeling down. You have all of us who consider you a friend so don't forget tht.

Breezy said...

Since I am replying to this post 10days after it was written I am going to hope that it was just a bad day for you and by now you feel better. Holidays do bring out the saddness for many, especially those that are alone for whatever reason. I pray it is a passing emotion, and that someone crosses their paths to cheer them up and let them know they are not alone. Even the happiest people get lonely from time to time. Push forward and push through it.