Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Where Am I?

Dear friends and readers.

My journal listings have been few lately and not very inspiring. When will I get back to business, back to spirit and a positive thrust in my life?

I suffered a giant blow to my emotions from the betrayal of my love and concern for someone I thought I could trust and respect and who I thought trusted and respected me.

I still suffer. The healing hasn't begun yet. Once it does and the stitches hold I hope I will find my way back out of this miserable burning of my soul and write you a better journal.

Being alone is hell. I have no friends here. I had one friend, I thought, my only friend, a daughter friend, the only daughter I ever had, who turned out to be not such a friend.

When I get to a safe place I will lie down and have a good long cry about the finality of things and about the person I deeply and earnestly loved but who I will probably never see again. And then the healing will begin, I hope.

DB ' The Vagabond
Never Give Up

5 comments:

Geo. said...

My best wishes, DB.

Jon said...

First of all, your journal listings are always inspiring.Despite all your problems, your writing skills have never suffered.
I sincerely hope that your new move will be smooth and quick, and that you will successfully sever all ties with whomever has hurt and betrayed you (although it's all easier said than done).

I'm sure you'll need lots of time for emotional healing. The best catharsis is to write about your feelings.

Being alone is definitely hell. I'm completely alone here in the wilds of Texas, and I seldom admit how frightening it can be......

Arlene (AJ) said...

DB just take it one day at a time dear and allow yourself to move forward versus backwards....we all have things to deal with in life that are hurtful or frustrating, but we can't give into that. Allow yourself to look foward to your move and new start. Know we all care about you.

Arlene (AJ) said...

DB just take it one day at a time dear and allow yourself to move forward versus backwards....we all have things to deal with in life that are hurtful or frustrating, but we can't give into that. Allow yourself to look foward to your move and new start. Know we all care about you.

Beth said...

Arlene is right...forge ahead and get to your new happy place, and you'll be back on track in no time. Hang tough!