Friday, February 27, 2009

True Tendering 2/27/09

Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it.

Rabindranath Tagore
Hail, dear friend.
Is there room enough in my life?

When I first looked at this Tagore quote I thought about making room for things that I believe are rightfully mine.

I'm a music lover. What if someone gave me a grand piano? I have a small apartment, would I be able to receive it? Of course I would. I would have to rearrange things: move the bed, change the location of my desk, find a different place for some of the books. But i could do it. Bring it on.

Now what if I got an idea for a new story or painting? Well the computer is ready for me to start typing. My easel is set up, I have canvas, paints and brushes. Send it in.

But what if my soul mate, the love of my life, should suddenly appear? What would I do with her? Where would I put her? As I start to think about that I realize how many more changes I would have to make. I lived alone for so long it's hard to imagine another creature in my life and what all I would have to do to adapt.. But, at least, with her around I would have help. I think it's doable. Let her in.

But now I think, what if the sky opened up and poured down the blessing of enlightenment on me? What if I got a totally new, fresh view of existence? What if the revelation I have been struggling to achieve should come in the blink of an eye and change my life forever? Is there enough room in my heart and my mind to receive it? What changes do I have to make now to be ready?

That's the question. Am I really ready to receive a higher selfhood and live it? That question pokes at my thoughts everyday. There is a closed door that seems to be locked, but isn't. And behind it is something I think I should fear, but don't. I believe the opening of the door is not up to me, but it is. Every time I pass it I knock gently. But one of these days.....

In the meantime I will have music, art, love and hope, if I keep myself prepared. I would have trouble with 8 maids a-milking, 7 swans a-swimming, 6 geese a-laying, etc.

But they don't belong to me.

Plan for Spring!


Gerry said...

I have been reading "Infidel" by Ayaan Hirsi Ali almost frantically once I let this woman's story into my life yesterday and couldn't stop reading (she is the muslim woman in Holland who was the subject of a project that got her benefactor killed, haven't gotten to that part yet) and I have been marveling over the experiences in so many countries that this woman had just seeking survival. I thought how the mindset of people in every country keeps out the light of reason until the country is in chaos one way or another because of narrowness of mind, lack of accountability, and inability to see fault in the self rather than always in the other people. I find it very hard to restrain myself around unreasonable people in response. But I know what will happen if I let myself get carried away in criticism. Worse! War! Yet, one must speak up and fight injustice or unreasonable behavior in some form or be doomed to servitude. Trying to strike the right note in protest is always my dilemma. Gerry

Leigh said...

I believe that you may be more ready that you think.
I think you have the openness to accept, process, listen, learn. Which is all that would be asked of you from said enlightenment.

:) Leigh

ps, I love this entry!

Beth said...

I'd ask you to let us know what you find when you open that door, but I suspect that it's one what we have to open ourselves. :)

Love, Beth

Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

I think keeping an open mind and heart are the only preparations that are necessary.

Indigo said...

I have a moleskin blank book that I keep around to write quotes in that touch me on a spiritual level. This one did and I've added it to my collections.

It goes hand in hand with my last entry. Despite the huge mtn. I had to climb to hang onto words, today they flow wit all that I am. That wouldn't of been possible if I had not found a way to keep the door open somehow. Thanks for this today dear sweet friend. (Hugs)Indigo

Big Mark 243 said...

For real, I think that when you ask yourself questions like this, not necessarily answer them audibly or that you feel you have to communitcate your answer to anyone else, you actually are ready.

These are things that most people never ask themselves, so how can they be ready to answer? This post speaks to all that anyone who wants fullfillment in their life.

What is important to you, makes its way into your life, and you accomodate it. And a new life grows around it.